The Organized Mess

It started snowing here in Shanghai this afternoon….

Made me an excited little girl…

As my seat in the office is right next to the window, I just kept staring out the window the whole afternoon…

Snowsnowsnow….

Heh…

Had dinner at Shintori yesterday with Daddy, Khai Seah, and Wylyn… Really great fantastic food. Expensive but super tasty food. Haha… Thanks Daddy!

Not my actual birthday yet.. My actual birthday is on the 17th. 

22!! So old already!!!!

I have been wanting to blog about 2 wonderful cafes I found here in Shanghai but I’m just so lazy to go and transfer the photos and what not. I’m just lazy. Hahaha… But the 2 cafes are just simply great. I love it. 秘密花园 and 小小花园。 They are sister cafes… both have great ambience but I love 秘密花园 better because it’s quieter. Haha… Both reminds me of Casual Poet. Haha.. So yeah.. wait till I find the energy or whatever in me to blog about it. Haha…

Anyway… the weather has been crazy hot here. Hot. Disgustingly hot. 40 degrees celsius!! Every time I step out of the air-con room I feel like I’ve just stepped into a sauna. Bleh. I’ve been getting lotsa breakouts the past week… =( I feel damn ugly. I totally blame it on the weather, dirty air and oily food here. URGH.

So yeah. Off to a lazy afternoon now.

Early birthday celebration tonight! =) =)

Here’s part 2 of my little “escapade”.

Heh.

1st stop. Zn Silver Maker.

徐汇区天平路45号

This is a store that sells silver jewellery. Stuff are mainly imported from Japan. You can design and make your own jewellery too. Darn cool. However, when I was there, the boss wasn’t in. It was some auntie tending the shop. So I didn’t do any DIY stuff. I did get a ring though. A simple little ring. But I like. =)

It’s jigsaw puzzle pieces… 

Pardon my ugly hand and nails…

Apparently this shop is quite popular among youngsters. There are celebrities who visit this shop too.

Owner (I think) and Mayday’s Ashin.

(Picture from Dianping)

2nd stop. Mia’s.

No. 45-47 An Fu Rd.

The former name of this little cafe is La Aroma de Vida, meaning scent of life in Spanish. It has since been renamed Mia’s, which is inspired by the owner’s daughter, Mia.

This quaint little cafe is centered around the concept of a cozy home-like atmosphere. The whole place has a very vintage feel.

All the furniture, light fittings, and whatever knick-knacks on display are actually part of the owner’s collection and are also for sale. Pretty cool although the items ain’t cheap.

Quite a nice little place to just chill…

Would you wanna have a cup of coffee with me?

My dear friends, I miss you all.

=(

I’m now safe and sound in Shanghai… Just finished unpacking and tomorrow… it’s time to go back to the office. Need to get the visa shit done if not I’ll have to go back again two weeks later.


I signed up for some vpn thingy so now I can access tumblr, twitter, youtube, and facebook in this land where everything is blocked! This makes me a happy girl. *grins


The weather is hothothot here…. 38 degrees celsius. Disgustingly hot. For the past two days, it’s been storming in the evening. Thunder, downpour… everything. My dad and I went to the jap restaurant just outside our condo for dinner just now. A short walk but I felt as if I was gonna fly away with my umbrella and got soaking wet before I even reached there.


Oh well… work tomorrow. *fingers crossed*


Keep me in prayers if you can… Here’s my address if you wanna send me anything…
上海市徐汇区中漕路凯旋路111弄2号楼308 


(Please send me something. You know how much I love snail mail. Thanks in advance. Heh…)

The original plan(my plan that is), was to go over to Shanghai in June or maybe even push it to July. I wanted to finish my elementary 2 japanese class here before going over. Also because I want to have some more time here before I go over and can only come back twice a year.


But now… my dad is asking me to go over sooner. Preferably right after I finish school in end April. He says that would be more accountable to my boss… since she has been holding the spot open for me for so long now. As for my jap class… he says I can go over there and find a language school to continue learning it. If I go over in May, it would be easier for my mum to follow me over too. Air tickets would be cheaper in May as well since June is the peak period and stuff.


If that’s the case… that means I only have like 2 months left?!?! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Howhowhowhowhow???????????


My dear friends… those who care about me that is… meet up soon please!!! Please please please!!!!!!

Didn’t manage to get any sleep last night. It’s horrible. I was just turning and tossing in bed, trying to will myself to sleep but to no avail. Urgh. Now I’m in class… trying to keep myself awake.


So I decided to blog.


Let’s see… over the past few days, there were more talks about going over to Shanghai. Daddy telling me what to expect, what to bring over, things I need to do before going over… blahblahblah. Oh well.


I’m supposed to study because midterms are coming up. But… well… since dad’s back we have been going out a lot… which means… hm… my books are untouched. I’m so dead I know. God help me.


Lastly, I showed my mum and dad the video of Hongki dressed up as a girl. My dad went “WAH! So pretty! She’s really a guy?! Is she a transvestite? Got surgery not? Really very pretty!”. My mum went “Wah… he’s a guy but he’s so much prettier than you…”. Thanks mum. Hahaha… yeah I guess Hongki is just too pretty.


AHHHHH… I’m so tired. Damn.

Feeling slightly emo and stressed at the moment.


Had a talk with daddy just now and realized that very very soon, I’ll be heading to Shanghai to work. It’s no longer a year or two later. It’s a matter of months. Plans are starting to become more concrete. Details are being laid out. It’s no longer a vague idea or something that’s gonna happen in the future that is still unsure. Things are more real now, much closer than I thought. It’s staring at me in the face. The only thing left is to decide when do I officially go over and of course, to apply for the necessary visas.


This scares me a little.


I mean all this while I know that I would be going over once I graduate. However, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do over there and how things are going to happen because nothing was really set in stone. So for the past few months, the idea and notion of going over to Shanghai just lingered at the back of my mind. I find myself making plans sometimes with this idea that I will be heading there in the later half of this year in mind. Whenever I shop for clothes I would be thinking “would I be able to wear this there?”. In my mind there’s also a list of things that I would have to do before I go over, loose ends that I would need to tie up and so on. I had to notify the parents of my tutees that I can probably only tutor them till May. Sometimes looking at the things in my room, I would be thinking of what I would bring there with me and what would be left behind. Other times I find myself thinking about my friends here. How will we keep in touch? Will they remember me? Will they still be my friends? Basically every other action, decision, and thought is based on the idea that I won’t be around here in the later half of this year. However, as nothing was really really decided, it was just a thought in my mind.


Now that I’ve had the talk with my dad, things sort of changed. Now I know what exactly I would be doing over there, the plans that are laid out for me. Everything suddenly becomes clear and… definite. Concrete. Real.


And now I’m scared. Because it seems that there isn’t much time left. Because I don’t know if I can meet the expectations my future boss has of me. Because I don’t know if I’m really ready. Because I don’t know if I’ll be able to cope over there. Because I’m afraid that I’ll be all alone there. Because I don’t know if I have the ability to start from scratch there. Because I simply am not sure if I’m strong enough. Because there is the linger thought of “what if I fail?”. Because… I’m just really scared.


As I write this I find my heart pounding faster and harder. I find myself taking in deep breaths to calm myself down.


Oh God, help me. Tell me everything will be fine. Please.